A product of humanity

Surprise, surprise! 

I am a human and I have feelings too. 

You are also a human and you have feelings too. 

Now, what to do?

They control every part of my life

They control every second how I feel

They control everything I decide

They control every time I lose

They control every time I win

Do I have any actual control over me?

Or is it just my emotions and my feelings driving my body to do things?

If so, then what is this?

Who is this imaginary soul or person writing this? 

If I do not exist then who is observing these events where my emotions and feelings are controlling my life?

Should I control or can I control my emotions and my feelings?

Should I modulate or can I regulate my emotions and my feelings?

Will I still be able to live my organic authentic life, if I change the way I feel about everything?

What is deciding how would I behave and what emotions would come to me when I engage with anything or anyone?

Will I regret if I interfere too much with my natural emotions and feelings or are they just the product of how I was raised?

If they are, then am I also just a product?

A product of humanity, maybe.

And if I am just a product, what is the meaning of my life?